New Wineskin = New Wine

My prayer recently has been a lot about new wine, and new wineskins.

Throughout the wrestling and surrendering of the last few months, I can see the ways in which in the past, despite desiring the “new wine” in my life, I was still an old wineskin. 

And the Lord, in His goodness and mercy, knew that in order for me to actually steward the gift of the new wine in my life, I need to first let myself become a new wineskin. 

I needed to begin to let my old thought patterns, my doubts, my attachments, my wounds and my insecurities actually fall away in order for the Lord to renew my mind and heart into the Emma He desires me to be. 

For so much of my life I used to look back and think “But Lord if you had given the new wine to me then, I KNOW I would have stewarded it well.”

And honestly, when I look back today, I can see how wrong I was and how right and merciful the Lord has been.

Jesus, I don’t want to look back and wish for past relationships or situations back. While they were good for a time, they are the old wine. And I am done with the old wine. 

Jesus, give me patience as you continue to transform me into the new wineskin that is actually ready for the new wine you have been preparing. You are never late. And You never disappoint!